Wanna know something about me?
I never thought I would.
when Jason was a baby I remember taking great offense
(in my head anyway....I rarely take great offense outside of my head)
to anyone over the age of say
coming any where toward my precious teeny tiny lil baby.
Funny thing though.
That tiny little baby
He grow big.
Well now I be muchh mor edukated
and I have realized that teenagers
are very cool people.
It's like watching all of that love and training and nurturing and prayer
start to take root
as you watch them become
Grown up humans.
I'm telling ya.
The harsh irony is that just as they become quite interesting to be around
they become quite busy in life
So I don't see them as much as I would like to.
In recent days as John has been out of the country I have been juggling the extra curriculars of all of these children
It's going fine.
It just necessitates lots
and oh yes lots
So as they are the oldest
and most able to secure their own transportation home
I leave them notes on the one or two night's a week that I may not be there right when they get home.
Here was tonight's note
It's just my little way of staying connected to them
passing on pertinent information
and maybe giving them a laugh....or causing them to think I'm a total nerd bomber.
One of the two.
All I know is that in 3 and then 4 short years
I'm going to seriously miss these faces everyday.
Beyond the obvious mushy mushy love I have for them since the day they emerged from my loins,
they frankly just entertain me.
They cut each other's hair.
Though they lack any skills to really do so.
They mess around with their brothers
And they enjoy bacon.
Copious amounts of bacon.
Empty nesters, I don't know how you do it.
I'm having anxiety already.
Must go sob into my pillow now.