Hit A Nerve.

Whew.

I can't thank you all enough for your comments and emails the past two days about not knowing when Enough is Enough. 

I sobbed over read over each and every one and gained some great insight into how to cope/deal/move forward with the cry of my heart.

The running theme was definitely that I am not alone.
And I love that about all of you.
I love that you get it.
You really get. it.

You all have been there
and seen it.
And held and cared and cried over the one's left behind.

I loved reading your own stories about how you struggled with the same things,
how you have more children in your home now because you were willing even when you thought you were done.
Or how you don't have more coming now because you know that now...is just not the time. 

So I awake today with a new perspective.
Still burdened
but realizing that I am not called to go, go, go.
I'm called to love, love, love.

HIM first. 
Them second.

And honestly.....

~gulp~

I think at times I was flip-flopping those two priorities.
Yikes.

That was hard to admit.

So for now,
my willing heart is here.
It's open to what He would have of me.

And that
for now
is enough.

Thank you.
From the bottom of my heart thank you.

*Working on catching up with emails, please don't think I am ignoring you!! My kids just keep taking over the computer with MineCraft. Ahhhhhhh!! *