Tuesday, October 19, 2010

It's all beginning to feel very, very real.

Today as I was getting the paperwork together for our next step I had a thought....
we are going to China.

We
Are
Really
Going
To
China.

Hello reality.
My name is Sonia.
Nice to meet you.

For so long this process has been about.....well, about the process.
Trying to wrap my rookie adoption brain around what we needed to do, who we needed to meet with, what form needed to go where, what we needed to do next.....
And now that that is all starting to settle down.....it has hit me.
We are going to China. 

These two little boys will soon be so much more than a picture.


They will be real
live
breathing
in the flesh gorgeous little faces that I get to look at and love on
in person. 

Be-still my heart.
I cannot wait to see them, to watch them chatter away with one another in Mandarin, to watch their relationship with their brothers develop, to love them, to feed them, to let them pick out a bicycle for the first time in their life, to teach them about the love of a Savior!...all of that amongst 1 million other things that bring me to my knees with thankfulness, anticipation and hope!
Cannot WAIT!

And though I don't expect it to be a fairytale.
What I do know is that we are smack dab in the center of HIS will.
Just where I wanna be. 

I will not leave you as orphans, I will come to you. John 14:18

10 comments:

  1. ahhhh i remember that realization with each of our adoptions-- esp. with noah. the process does consume you for so long that you forget that there is a reality beyond the process-- and you are so close-- getting visas i presume, making preliminary travel arrangements-- just wait till you pack! oh my! course, i start packing about 8 weeks beforehand!!!;)

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  2. Oh what a great adventure you have ahead of you!! I am here if you ever want to bounce China questions off of! So excited for you to go!!

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  3. Tears . . .

    Oh Sonia, I am beyond excited for you. There is nothing that compares to traveling half way around the world to "give birth" (to "twins" again, for you)--it is surreal and amazing, and scary, and amazing, and just plain crazy amazing! I know everyone's experience is different, but adoption itself is just such a HUGE God event!

    Huge!

    I am so excited for you I can hardly stand it!

    Thank you for sharing your "introduction to reality" with us!

    Love you!

    Tina

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  4. I remember having the very same feeling.
    Relish every moment right before, during and after getting those boys.
    I still get those feelings when watching video or looking at photos.

    Can't wait to do it all over again.

    Adoption is such a God awesome thing!!

    Blessings!!
    Stacy

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  5. I think about this time, each time, I almost forgot to breathe :o) I was just walking around in circles. what an amazing time for your family (and friends).
    email me if you still want the space bags and neck passport holders. I will send them right away- I remember getting a call and on a plane in 8 days for Daniel.. not much longer for Drew.. good times good times! Sophia we had a little bit more notice but it was quite a bit different 6 yrs ago for her. :O0
    loved this post by the way~

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  6. YAY!! YOU'RE GOING TO CHINA!!! I can't wait to be a spectator to this amazing journey!!

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  7. China is such an amazing country. I am sure others have shared of their trips--we had an absolutely wonderful time. (Pack lots of snacks!!) I am looking forward to checking in and seeing pictures of you with you youngest sons!!

    I would love to share more on our church's adoption/foster care ministry! It is a blessing to be a used to share the miracle of adoption.

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  8. Beautifully put. I'm right. there. with. you. Almost takes my breath away sometimes. I'm packing, nesting, crying, obsessing, refreshing email, and mostly just in awe of my Father for allowing me to be used in this tiny way to bring about His plan for the second time. What blessed Mamas we are!
    Blessings,
    Monica

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  9. i love what you said about being smack dab in the midst of His will. Awesome place to be.

    Can't wait to see videos of the boys at home on the blog.

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