Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Overdue......Start the Pitocin

I'm feelin a little overdue today.
In fact, I'm feelin a bit like I did about 8 years ago

yeah.....that's how much I love you guys that I am willing to post a picture like this. 
Very pregnant with two boys
Feelin a little overdue, even though I totally wasn't
Ankles swelling
Appetite totally out of control
Emotions all over the place.....could I have been a little more happy about my grits?! Sheesh!
And let's not even talk about the empty container of syrup. Anyone seen the movie Elf? Yeah. Syrup on everything. Buddy and I are tight.

Anyhoo, I try
for the most part
to not keep track of numbers and or dates along this adoption road.
In the beginning I did
oh boy did I ever...
and then when I felt like we were at a standstill on the side of the road while other cars zipped by us 
I was finding that it was just better for my emotional health not to be counting down the days until this journey ended or to be comparing our journey to the time line of others but to just embrace where we were at that time.

Sounds so easy to write it out.....oh sooooo much harder to live it out.

It's a bit like when I plug a new address into the GPS on a road trip and it tells me that we will arrive at our destination at 12:00 for example.....
well darnit, come 12:00 I expect to be there.
I will plan for 12. I hate to be late. If you tell me 12, I'll be there at 12. That's just how I roll.
I don't want to know nor discuss the possibility that there will be road work, construction delays, detours, if it says 12:00 then 12 it shall be.
Thus at some point it was bound to happen that I would need to be dragged kicking and screaming out of that la-la land where everything went seamlessly and according to my plan.

So when we plugged in our "We will be in China Date" into the GPS and it spit out that we should be there end of October/November I expected to be there the end of October or sometime early November.

And then we got schooled in the hard knocks of adoption.
And we are all the wiser for it.
So here we sit.......into December and we're not there yet. 

And I'm ok with that.
Ok, maybe "ok" isn't the right word.
But I have developed(man alive this has been a growing season in my life) tremendous faith that we have not missed the boat, we have not gotten behind, we are not late to the party, we'll get there.

So amongst all of this I had forgotten that I had even started a ticker at the very beginning of our adoption to track the time.
The ticker lives waaaayyyy down at the bottom of my blog so I don't often scroll down that far.
And today I happened to think of it when I saw one on someone else's blog so I took a little look:
9 months and 3 weeks.
9 months and 3 weeks since we said yes to adoption.
Said yes to two faces completely unknown to us at the time.
Said yes to this face

Said yes to this face

Said yes to what would turn out to be these two little boys, best friends, foster brothers, our sons.


So even though we are technically overdue and even though I sometimes find myself getting irritated that our projected arrival time on the stupid GPS isn't what it started out to be, at this point I am more often than not at peace with that......
even though I still do have my moments when I want to throw the stupid GPS out the window.
Shhhhh, don't tell my kids I said stupid.....we don't say that in our house. ;)


  1. 9 months! You have been moving along. Amazing.
    And yes, you need some hairbows and fancy dresses at your house. I do agree. :) After you get home, you will forget all this "labor" and do it again. Funny how that works. :) Hugs. You are soooo close!!!

  2. Love the photo! You got me to counting and for us it has been exactly 14 months. BUT...the end is in sight. Now don't get me wrong, if God had checked with me on the timing we wouldn't be spending the 2 weeks leading up to Christmas in China when the airfares were scary expensive along with everything else. But He had a different (and infinitely better I might add) plan than mine. And even though you're "ready to pop", He already has your "birthing plan" in place. I'll bet your TA is just around the corner.

  3. The wait in adoption is by far the hardest part--esp. once you've seen your child(ren)'s faces!! Hang in there. It won't be too much longer!!

    BTW-are you eating a plate of margarine in that picture? :)

  4. yep- 9 months in adoption is FAST!!! (don't shoot me sonia!) we were 12-- right to the button. and if you don't blog EVERY SINGLE DETAIL of that trip i will have serious issues. so please tell me you've resolved that.:) (b/c it's all about me:)

    man-- I can't wait till you meet those boys!!!!!!!!!!!!

    was your A5 picked up last thursday?

    ps-- now would be a good time to dispense of all chocolate, candy or alcohol from the house, as the wait for TA can induce splurges and or complete frenzies with aforesaid pieces of food/drink.

    i'm only thinkin' of you babe.


  5. that is too funny-- i've been looking for yours:)

    seriously-- if you don't laugh during these next weeks- you might hurt yourself.

    or someone else!

  6. Can I like this post, a lot?!? :) Glad you're MOSTLY at peace - that's how I've been feeling too.
    Ring, phone, ring!

  7. Same thing happened to us when we adopted Emma and Ellie- we thought we would travel in May, maybe June but it finally happened in July! The wait was grueling.

    I got a feeling we are hopin for a bit much this time, too... I'm thinking April, maybe May. If we are super lucky then March! Hubby is pretty certain that God only lets him go to China in July, when it's hotter than... well you know what I mean!

    It's time- come on TA!! Prayin!

  8. Believe me, I understand completely. When we started our paper trail for our first adoption they were telling us it is usually a 10 month timeframe...2 1/2 years later we recieved our referral for Claire. However, our journey to Caleb took 10 months! Praying that it will all happen soon! It would be so stinkin' awesome to see you together with ALL your boys for Christmas!


    BTW - stupid is a bad word at our house too!

  9. Awwwwe, you said the "s" word . . . I'm tell . . . .ing. Yep, illegal here too.

    I was looking back over my blog from the waiting days. . . re-read a post titled "Overdue" (when we hit the "9 months since I first saw your face" day. And another post titled "A Promise" (}--written when we hit day 116 waiting for our LOA (friends who started when we did, had already traveled by this time . . . CC double A made a paperwork blunder--resolved on day 126 of our wait for LOA). Anyway, the "promise" was this--

    "For the vision still has its time, presses on to fulfillment and will not disappoint; if it delays, wait for it, it will surely come, it will not be late." Habakkuk2:3

    Wow . . . it will not be late, hmmmm . . .

    And this is how The Message Bible says it ~

    And then God answered: "Write this. Write what you see. Write it out in big block letters so that it can be read on the run. This vision-message is a witness pointing to what's coming. It aches for the coming—it can hardly wait! And it doesn't lie. If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time. Habakkuk 2:3

    Oh yes--it aches for the coming . . . but you know what? Looking back, we traveled exactly when we needed to. Exactly. I had no idea when I picked my user name (at the very beginning stages of our journey) how hard it would be to "wait faithfully"--but he is faithful, even when we are overdue. Especially when we are overdue!

    Waitingfaithfully with you--praying it's soon time to go gather those babies into your arms, forever!

    Tina ~ xo

  10. Wow, I didn't know people really read Habakkuk, except my saintly mother, but I am underlining that one! And I need to post it all over my house! I know you are ready to go get those boys, but maybe God is just giving you a little bit more time to watch Him work! Cause boy is he ever!
    Love you! Kaye

  11. Yes, you have the right program on the ipod. The next thing you need to do is turn on the Chinese keyboard and that will let them draw and type the characters!!

    I will do an update soon. Everything is going great! Could not ask for a better outcome and we are truly amazed and blessed!!!

  12. You CRACK me up girl!! LOVE the preggo pic and you WERE preggo, might I say. Though I only had one at a time, I definitely had the belly going at 9 mos with my big babies!

    As for the S's a no no in this home, too. Shame on you momma! LOL!!

    And as for timing, yeah...Kaylin's adoption was to be about 7 or 8 months way back when before China slowed down. We were honestly the lucky ones finding her on our agency's SN list and off we went to China 5 mos before the rest of the crew who were LID the same month. Still took 18 mos though. It was during that time that the Lord gave me some wonderful lessons in HIS timing and patience. Hard ones at times for sure.

    This time around, I feel like we are on a roller coaster with no one (yes there really is someone...the Lord) at the controls and it's going a million miles an hour and I'm hanging on for dear life. PHEW! Now we still have to wait to see what our LOA timing will be like, but even if it's a long 78 days....we're still talkin' FAST! So, I've done it both ways now and not quite sure which is easier.

    But it is ALWAYS interesting how the Lord swoops in and makes it all HIS timing!