A distracted parent.
In case you think I am actually here
I am not.
I am already in China.
My heart is there.
My head is there.
Every thought and feeling is there.
Yep. I packed up months ago and moved there.
And to have the rest of me still be here,
I am completely distracted to my everyday life. I stalk my mailbox and my email more times a day than I will admit. Spend hours on the computer late into the night sobbing with joy over the journey's of others, I'm tellin ya. It ain't pretty.
And don't even get me started on those Gotcha Day videos...those things are like crack to waiting parents
I've never had crack
so I don't really know
but I'm just assuming.
I am a wreck.
A happy wreck,
A sad wreck.
An excited wreck.
A nervous wreck.
You name the emotion and I'm there.
I cry at the drop of a hat, good, bad, whatev, doesn't matter.
Sappy commercials make me cry
tucking my kids in bed at night makes me cry
I'm not much of a shopper or spender but man alive retail therapy has sure helped!!
Kiddo #6's first care package is all ready to go.
Totally premature I know.
But tangibally being able to do something for him...
ahhhh, makes this momma feel better.
Their first joint care package...
also ready to go.
Ahhhhh, feeling really better now.
#6's care package is identical to Joey's. I think having matching things(though he has the Toy Story version and Joey has the Cars version) will on some level cement that they(possibly, hopefully, please Lord move this mountain) get to be brothers and best friends forever.
I guess I don't really have a point to all of this. Other than to share...that this is where I'm at. So if you see me out and about and I have mascara running down my face looking like I belong in an 80's rock band it's probably because I saw a sappy laundry detergent commercial or something epic like that.
It's all good though.
I'll just re-apply the make-up later and start all over again.