If there was a way that I could eloquently,
articulate the journey of the last 7 months it would be this.
It's what happens after the airport.
Go read it.
It speaks to me.
It sings to me.
It validates me.
And it makes me feel like in those moments when I walk around in our new normal smiling on the outside
but feeling like I just might break on the inside
it soothes me.
I love so much about it..
truth about what this journey of adoption is really like.
It will rock. your. world.
There will be a palpable, earth quaking shift to every facet of your life when you step out.
Bet your booty.
It will happen.
The waters are deep
the tension can run high.
I'm not sure my brain has taken a deep breath since January 17th.
There is just
So, soooo much.
The intricacies of knitting a new family together
not just nurturing the new parent child relationships
but navigating the arduous waters of creating sibling bonds
of accepting where they came from
of loving them through their weaknesses
of constantly supplying a fountain of love and reassurance when your own well is running dry.
That is our life.
Our new life.
It's why I feel
Despite it all
and less you run screaming in the other direction away from all things adoption
you should know there is some serious joy in this journey.
I would do it again.
He would do it again.
They would do it again.
Because though this process may be magnifying my weaknesses
it has also brought me to my knees in thankfulness
with a humble heart
I get to
My good friend Colleen has begun a series of posts regarding adoption and all that comes right along with it.
The first installment begins with "Adoption is insane."
I love that.
I love that so many are coming out of that adoption closet and saying ya know what?
This. is. hard.
Do what you will.
It is what it is.
Here is my experience
now let me encourage you through yours.
Colleen emailed me a heartfelt message shortly after we returned home with the boys.
Between fits, tantrums, 8 millions bowls of ramen noodles, and many sleepless nights
it sustained me.
God is on the move friends.
His heart is adoption.
It's messy, it's hard, it's the best thing we have ever done
"I followed a God into this story who heals and redeems, who restores
wasted years and mends broken places. This God specializes in the
Destroyed. I've seen it. I've been a part of it. I have His ancient Word
that tells of it. I love a Jesus who made reconciliation his whole
mission. My children will not remain broken. They are loved by too good a
Savior. I will not remain exhausted and spent. I am loved by too
merciful a Father. "
Go read it.